Doing Okay

I'm not going to loose him.he is supportive. I got an E-mail from my voc rehab counselor about getting train in NIB which is a sheltered workshop. I can't do that, although anything looks nice right now. Other than that, things are okay for.

I Might Loose Him

I want to go back to school. But I'm afraid I'll loose him. I want to be near him. I am so tired of living alone. I want him near me all the time. I have to be near him. I am getting old. I need my boy. He makes me laugh, think, and is very supportive. We haven't been together for for 2 years that is too long. I don't know what I am doing. I am so lost inside. I want to have a purpose. I want to be near him. I feel that I am trap here and am so sad.

What I've Noticed

I can't believe the people I have met. I wantto meet intelligent people especially those that use common sense like they way they act in public. I am talking about appearance, socially, I mean living right. I know I haven't been the bestmyself, but at least be presentable. That what I need. I needto meet intelligent, down to earth, and decent people. Some that I have met have not. I need once that want to have a fulfilling life. I wantto live a live that has more meaning than sitting in front of the computer, watching TV, or seeing what tonight's dinner is going to be. Iwant alife of purpose. I can't around people who are like that, it is so depressing.

Still Deciding

I am still undecided. I want to be with Brett. I can't be with him. My friends that were around us say to go to him. The people here say that I should go back to school. Iam just tired of being alone. It's so hard. I want a career but I want to be near Brett when it happens. I'm lost.

In the Fork on the Game of Life

I am not shre what path to take. I can either go to school here where I have a lot of support and the people at the school can help me. But, Brett isn't here. I could to to school where Brett is at but I don't know anybody het and regab is not going to support me there either. They are not taking blind clients, they have to be put on a waiting list. I just feel confuse. I have been reading Joyce Myer's book on Listening to God. I have not gotten too much into the book. I just need something. I have options which I have to decide on soon.