Going Back to School

I'll be going to school next semester. I have to see Brett this summer. I feel bad I won't be with him when I do. He has been so supportive in what I do. I miss him a lot. I have to look for a ticket to go out there.

Still Living

Today's my dad's and my cousin Rica's birthday. Happy Birthday to them both. Anyway, I am happy. I want to be a star. Before I turn 40 I hope I can find away to make it out there again. I miss that stuff. Ican do it!

Just Thinking

I am just sitting here at home thinking. Of course, what does one do when one is alone. Iwent to the gym for about an hour thenI stayed home. I was invited to go to someone house but felt lazy toleave. I have been reading a book series by Diane Mott Davidson. I can't stop reading her book. Perhaps its because I like the story and the reader's voice. Anyway, I have told you how I been playing the piano and sort of sing to myself. I haven't done that in a long time. I don't why. I have been thing about the talk my brother and I had on Saturday. I miss entertaining people. I like to feed them as well as singing to them. I love doing that kind of thing. It feels good inside. I like making people happy. The applause orthe words of appreciation is nice. Guess, I'll see where I can go with this idea. I justneed to be around the right people.

Thinking Again

My brother and I were talking on Saturday night. It was a mix of everything I think. He was talking about how I used to entertain people by singing and how he wants to do the same things like acting and singing. I want that too but I am afraid. I can't do it.I am trying now to do little things like singing in my apartment. It feels weird and good at the same time. I'll see where it will take me with this exercise of mine. I do want to entertain people again. But to make money, I want to be an accountant.

I'm Going back to School

I can't wait. My Voc rehab counselor is going to authorize or at least see if shecan authorize me in going back to school. I can't wait. I will be an accountant,or an assistant accountant. I hope that Brett is going to be okay with the whole ordeal.

Nothing New

I am not doing anything new. I go to the gym with Stacey and just spend the rest of my day at home. I should do something fun, but I don't. I don't have the kind of things I used to have when I was in Colorado. I know that I can make the most of the things I do have but I don't have the security I used to have as far as the community I live in. It is horrible. I know I can just ignore it but I am afraid of being hurt, that's all.

Another Day

Nothing new is happening as for now. I just pray that something good will happen this year. Lord, hear my prayer. You're my shepperd and I am your sheep.

Need to Move On

I need to definitely moveaway frommyfamily.I feel that Iam toold to be near them especially the way things are. I can't go to my parents anymore to do laundry. I'm better than that. I don't want to clean their house either. I don't live there. I guess it's a gesture because I do laundry there. Anyway, I need to be where I can travel safely and not have to worry about being harassed or depending on my family other than moral support